“你也不要想太多，這是上頭的意思，說(shuō)是要推陳出新。這暫時(shí)x先停檔一陣子啊……”余總監(jiān)拍了拍我的肩膀，說(shuō)著，“那你先去工作，等有消息了之后，臺(tái)里面會(huì)通知你的?！?nbsp;                                                                                                            余總監(jiān)的話(huà)很官方很場(chǎng)面，也沒(méi)有給我一個(gè)確定的回答，卻是把我釣在了那邊，雖然我的節(jié)目被改檔了，但是手頭上其他的工作卻還沒(méi)有停止。                                                                                                             突然覺(jué)得有些郁悶，為這突然之間的變故。                                                                                                             深夜檔的直播節(jié)目被停掉了，似乎也不是那么一件挺悲哀的事情，也許我還能早睡早起身t好，十點(diǎn)到凌晨?jī)牲c(diǎn)是美容覺(jué)的時(shí)間，而我的真正的工作卻從十點(diǎn)開(kāi)始，十二點(diǎn)結(jié)束，等到收拾完回到家洗個(gè)澡睡覺(jué)也臨近兩點(diǎn)了。                                                                                                             有人說(shuō)十二點(diǎn)之后睡，屬于不要臉，兩點(diǎn)之后睡那屬于不要命，而我，天天不要臉經(jīng)常x不要命的。                                                                                                             一個(gè)nv人，積年累月下來(lái)，又再好的t質(zhì)也被摧殘光了，我以前的時(shí)候冬天的時(shí)候暖的像是一個(gè)火爐，而現(xiàn)在，冬天手腳都是冰涼冰涼的，也不知道什么時(shí)候才能暖起來(lái)。                                                                                                             似乎，也有這么一個(gè)換一個(gè)工作的必要了                                                                                                             我想。                                                                                                             晚上的時(shí)候，我約了楊逸學(xué)長(zhǎng)出來(lái)吃飯。                                                                                                             在彼此都工作了之后，雖然時(shí)常還有聯(lián)系，但是像是在學(xué)校里面那樣，已經(jīng)很少能夠做到了。                                                                                                             楊逸學(xué)長(zhǎng)在社會(huì)上混的還是不錯(cuò)的，不像是我，在這幾年之中，他也已經(jīng)混成了主管級(jí)別的人物，經(jīng)常出國(guó)出差，每次回來(lái)的時(shí)候總不忘給帶點(diǎn)手信回來(lái)。                                                                                                             地點(diǎn)是學(xué)長(zhǎng)挑的，一家五星級(jí)酒店的自助餐。以前的時(shí)候也來(lái)過(guò)，楊逸有會(huì)員卡。                                                                                                             楊逸學(xué)長(zhǎng)還是一如既往的帥氣，但是看的多了之后，也就淡定了。                                                                                                             學(xué)長(zhǎng)后來(lái)還是和大學(xué)里面交往的那個(gè)nv朋友分手了，那個(gè)時(shí)候才剛出社會(huì)的第一年吧，學(xué)長(zhǎng)喊我出去喝酒，去了之才說(shuō)分了手了。                                                                                                             那一晚，學(xué)長(zhǎng)喝高了，在人聲鼎沸的酒吧里面舉著手上的酒瓶子在那邊大聲說(shuō)著早晚有一天要出人頭地的豪言壯志。                                                                                                             我沒(méi)問(wèn)為什么，在不久之后，我聽(tīng)聞了那個(gè)學(xué)姐結(jié)婚的消息，好像新郎似乎家里面挺有錢(qián)的公子哥。                                                                                                             很多時(shí)候，這些就是現(xiàn)實(shí)。                                                                                                             學(xué)長(zhǎng)也像是要印證自己說(shuō)過(guò)的話(huà)一樣，真的在這幾年之中在一家外企里面從一個(gè)小小的職員爬到了主管的地位。                                                                                                             只是每次見(jiàn)到他，他的臉上總是有著散不去的疲憊，近來(lái)也聽(tīng)說(shuō)開(kāi)始順從家里面開(kāi)始相親一類(lèi)的活動(dòng)，也許等到某一天，我也就收到學(xué)長(zhǎng)的紅帖子了。                                                                                                             “最近可能要去美國(guó)一趟，怎么樣，有沒(méi)有什么特別想帶的東西？”學(xué)長(zhǎng)一邊切著自己盤(pán)子里面的牛排，一邊問(wèn)著我。                                                                                                             “過(guò)時(shí)不候的啊，要帶什么感情上網(wǎng)查，寫(xiě)一張單子給我啊?！?nbsp;                                                                                                            他說(shuō)著。                                                                                                             楊逸他似乎還是和在學(xué)校里面的時(shí)候沒(méi)有多少差別，一樣的看上去親切無(wú)b，但是現(xiàn)在的他已經(jīng)知道要保持自己的形象不能像是以往的時(shí)候一樣笑的那么的開(kāi)懷了。                                                                                                             而且從他的臉上，我越來(lái)越見(jiàn)不到那種笑容了。                                                                                                             “那我想想?！蔽矣眯∩鬃油谥约罕P(pán)子里面的草莓起司蛋糕。                                                                                                             “恩，行！”                                                                                                             楊逸點(diǎn)了點(diǎn)頭，很迅速地把自己盤(pán)子里面的食物堅(jiān)決的gg凈凈的。                                                                                                             “今天有心事？一臉悶悶不樂(lè)的樣子。”楊逸由著服務(wù)員把他的盤(pán)子收走，也不忙著去食物區(qū)哪里取g凈的盤(pán)子取食物吃，而是靠在沙發(fā)椅背上，看著我問(wèn)著。                                                                                                             “算是有點(diǎn)吧，”我回答，“我的節(jié)目被臺(tái)里面停檔了。”                                                                                                             我說(shuō)，其實(shí)還是覺(jué)得有點(diǎn)惋惜的，畢竟已經(jīng)做了那么多年的節(jié)目了，多少也是有感情的，說(shuō)挺就挺，不管是在習(xí)慣上還是在心態(tài)上，一下子都是有點(diǎn)接受不了的。                                                                                                             “恩？”                                                                                                             楊逸也有點(diǎn)意外。                                                                                                             “怎么突然之間說(shuō)停就停了？不是一直都好好的么，”楊逸也有些意外，“沒(méi)事，晚點(diǎn)回去我?guī)湍闳?wèn)問(wèn)具t的緣由。”                                                                                                             當(dāng)初介紹這份工作給我的是楊逸，雖然我不應(yīng)該跟他說(shuō)這件事情，但是現(xiàn)在遭遇這突然之間的轉(zhuǎn)變，我其實(shí)還是挺想知道緣故的，所以除了來(lái)找楊逸幫忙的話(huà)，我也想不到去找誰(shuí)。                                                                                                             電臺(tái)的上頭絕對(duì)不會(huì)把是是的真相告訴我的，有的只有官方而又片面的回答。                                                                                                             “其實(shí)也不是那么的重要，實(shí)在不行換一個(gè)工作，或者回家嫁人也算是一個(gè)不錯(cuò)的選擇。”我笑，反正工作對(duì)我來(lái)說(shuō)一向都是一種個(gè)人吃飽，全家不餓的選擇，丟了這份工作，換一個(gè)新的也好，還可以換一個(gè)新的工作環(huán)境。                                                                                                             差不多點(diǎn)的時(shí)候我也是要回到自己老家的，我爸媽畢竟就我一個(gè)nv兒，在那邊找一個(gè)差不多一點(diǎn)的工作，不需要工資特別多，然后找一個(gè)對(duì)象，結(jié)個(gè)婚，了卻了爸媽一直的念叨，似乎也是一個(gè)很不錯(cuò)的選擇。                                                                                                             “說(shuō)什么傻話(huà)呢，你不是一向都是浪漫主義的想法的么？”楊逸問(wèn)我，“怎么突然之間想法變得那么的實(shí)際”                                                                                                             “社會(huì)催生的?！蔽彝铝送律嗷卮鹬?，然后像是想到一點(diǎn)又抬起了頭問(wèn)向楊逸，“學(xué)長(zhǎng)問(wèn)你一個(gè)事……”                                                                                                             “你想說(shuō)的事情是和靳騏有關(guān)的吧？”                                                                                                             楊逸不等我問(wèn)出口，就已經(jīng)先回答我了。                                                                                                             果然是楊逸學(xué)長(zhǎng)么，我閉了閉眼，覺(jué)得還是有點(diǎn)意外的，因?yàn)槲液徒U交往的時(shí)候，靳騏并沒(méi)有和楊逸學(xué)長(zhǎng)見(jiàn)過(guò)面，那個(gè)時(shí)候他正在外地實(shí)習(xí)，唯一見(jiàn)過(guò)只有我們社團(tuán)外出游玩的時(shí)候拍的照片而已。                                                                                                             “能說(shuō)說(shuō)么？”我問(wèn)。                                                                                                             楊逸點(diǎn)了點(diǎn)頭。                                                                                                             作者標(biāo)題標(biāo)錯(cuò)沒(méi)有三十三章                                                                                                             正文 第三十四章                                                                                                             聽(tīng)楊逸學(xué)長(zhǎng)慢慢悠悠地說(shuō)著，從他一開(kāi)始遇見(jiàn)靳騏的時(shí)候也多少有些意外開(kāi)始，因?yàn)樗仓宦?tīng)說(shuō)過(guò)這個(gè)男人。                                                                                                             我和靳騏的交往雖然是楊逸學(xué)長(zhǎng)一手促成的，但是事實(shí)上，學(xué)長(zhǎng)這個(gè)紅娘在我們交往的時(shí)候并沒(méi)有出場(chǎng)過(guò)。                                                                                                             學(xué)長(zhǎng)的出場(chǎng)一直是到靳騏的不告而別，他也結(jié)束實(shí)習(xí)結(jié)束寒假回到學(xué)校了之后才知道的，那個(gè)時(shí)候我已經(jīng)把所有和靳騏有關(guān)的一切該扔掉的扔掉，手機(jī)里面的電話(huà)號(hào)碼還有照片也都全部刪掉了。                                                                                                             所以學(xué)長(zhǎng)對(duì)靳騏的知曉程度大概只在于名字而已。                                                                                                             而從學(xué)長(zhǎng)的說(shuō)辭之中他表示遇上靳騏的，他也有些意外，他是在洽談業(yè)務(wù)的時(shí)候遇上的靳騏。                                                                                                             在業(yè)務(wù)洽談完成之后，靳騏叫住了他，然后詢(xún)問(wèn)了關(guān)于我的一切。                                                                                                             楊逸原本是不想說(shuō)的，如果不是為了合同，大概會(huì)直接一拳揮上去送給靳騏當(dāng)見(jiàn)面禮了。                                                                                                             從靳騏事件之后，我也知道，學(xué)長(zhǎng)對(duì)我似乎有一種虧欠心理，總覺(jué)得當(dāng)初如果不是他幫我這一把之后也不會(huì)出現(xiàn)這種事情，所以這么多年來(lái)學(xué)長(zhǎng)對(duì)我一向很好，好的出奇，什么都不忘我那一份。                                                                                                             曾經(jīng)我也對(duì)學(xué)長(zhǎng)說(shuō)了，其實(shí)不用如此，但是他還是一如既往地對(duì)我好，帶著補(bǔ)償心態(tài)。                                                                                                             楊逸說(shuō)，原本他也是不想說(shuō)關(guān)于我的一切的，但是靳騏對(duì)于他的說(shuō)辭，只說(shuō)了一句就算是他不說(shuō)，頂多就是他多麻煩一點(diǎn)，早晚都是能查到的。                                                                                                             楊逸才覺(jué)得瞞著也覺(jué)得沒(méi)有多少的必要，畢竟只能夠瞞得住一時(shí)，瞞不住一世，所以他也沒(méi)有多說(shuō)什么，是給了靳騏一個(gè)地址。                                                                                                             “我覺(jué)得吧，你這么多年過(guò)來(lái)了，在你心底總是有疙瘩在的，所以說(shuō)如果能夠把事情講開(kāi)，似乎也沒(méi)有什么不好的?！?nbsp;                                                                                                            楊逸喝了一口紅酒，看著我慢慢悠悠地說(shuō)著。                                                                                                             “他回來(lái)了，見(jiàn)他不過(guò)就是早晚的事情而已了?！睏钜菡f(shuō)。                                                                                                             我想也是，除非就是他自己不愿來(lái)找我，如果他愿意，只要有心，我想也沒(méi)有什么是做不到的，更何況就算楊逸學(xué)長(zhǎng)不說(shuō)，還有李澈的存在。                                                                                                             “那么，你的心結(jié)解開(kāi)了那么？”楊逸問(wèn)著我。                                                                                                             我搖了搖頭。                                                                                                             “我不知道。”我說(shuō)。                                                                                                             我真的不是很清楚，從一開(kāi)始的狠靳騏的不告而別，但是這么多年過(guò)去了，再怎么鮮明的se調(diào)也慢慢地變得灰白了，偶爾還是會(huì)想起靳騏的，想他的不告而別，但是這些也不會(huì)成為我人生之中的唯一了。                                                                                                             后來(lái)見(jiàn)到靳騏之后，他給的理由雖然我不是很滿(mǎn)意，但是也還能接受，我總不能指望著他像是b子劇一樣，說(shuō)是患了什么毛病不得不出國(guó)治療一類(lèi)的劇情，這種太雷太囧，也是在是太不符合實(shí)際了。                                                                                                             相b較之下，我寧可相信他是出國(guó)求學(xué)的，而不是為了那種囧之又囧的劇情。                                                                                                             只是我依舊會(huì)覺(jué)得他心狠，能夠不告而別，當(dāng)然的我也不覺(jué)得如果當(dāng)初他對(duì)我說(shuō)了這件事情之后我會(huì)陪著他一起出國(guó)一類(lèi)的，因?yàn)槲抑牢业募揖砱本就負(fù)擔(dān)不起我出國(guó)的費(fèi)用，所以我g本就不敢想象，也不想去想想。                                                                                                             不管從哪個(gè)角度上來(lái)說(shuō)，就算是靳騏和我告別了，我和他之間的感情還是依舊會(huì)玩玩的。                                                                                                             “他來(lái)找過(guò)你了？”楊逸問(wèn)著我，聲音篤定。                                                                                                             我點(diǎn)頭，其實(shí)找不找都覺(jué)得沒(méi)有多少的意思了。                                                                                                             我和楊逸很有默契地不再提起以前的事情，也不在提起和靳騏有關(guān)的事情了，像是純粹來(lái)享受這頓美食一樣，從本質(zhì)上真正地做到了扶墻進(jìn)扶墻出的地步。                                                                                                             吃的過(guò)多了，我婉拒了楊逸學(xué)長(zhǎng)送我回去的好意，決定自己慢慢地走一圈運(yùn)動(dòng)消化一下，不然就算是上了車(chē)也覺(jué)得難受極了。                                                                                                             才走了不到幾分鐘，電話(huà)鈴聲就已經(jīng)響起了。                                                                                                             我從包里面m出了手機(jī)，見(jiàn)到是李澈的電話(huà)，接了起來(lái)。                                                                                                             “有事？”我問(wèn)。                                                                                                             “聽(tīng)阿騏說(shuō)，你已經(jīng)連續(xù)好幾天夜不歸宿了，想要躲人也沒(méi)有必要躲的那么的徹底吧？”李澈的聲音慢慢悠悠地想起，“你是在躲著阿騏呢，還是在躲著我們兩個(gè)人？”                                                                                                             唔…………                                                                                                             “沒(méi)有想到，靳騏連這種事情也對(duì)對(duì)你這個(gè)表哥說(shuō)么？”我問(wèn)，我還以為這兩個(gè)人私底下不大會(huì)聯(lián)系，沒(méi)有想到還是會(huì)互相交流情報(bào)網(wǎng)？                                                                                                             這可真叫人震撼的。                                                                                                             “知己知彼百戰(zhàn)百勝，阿騏來(lái)問(wèn)我你的去向，我沒(méi)有理由不探聽(tīng)一下，不是么？”李澈反問(wèn)著我，語(yǔ)調(diào)微微地上揚(yáng)，似乎還有著一點(diǎn)驕傲的成分在里頭。                                                                                                             這個(gè)男人才是真正的大腹黑。                                                                                                             “我總得有個(gè)可以避世的窩吧，總是讓你們給找到，多不合算。”我哼，耳尖地聽(tīng)到從李澈的電話(huà)里面?zhèn)鱽?lái)車(chē)子喇叭的聲響，估計(jì)是在某個(gè)路段上。                                                                                                             “你過(guò)來(lái)接我吧，我在西湖邊這里。”我說(shuō)，我突然覺(jué)得很累，找了一處可以坐人的地方坐了下來(lái)，看著西湖邊的夜景，不遠(yuǎn)處還能夠瞧見(jiàn)那音樂(lè)噴泉。                                                                                                             在這個(gè)城市生活了那么多年，我突然只覺(jué)得有種寂寞的味道。                                                                                                             “那等我到附近了之后再給你電話(huà).”李澈應(yīng)了聲，然后把電話(huà)掛掉了。                                                                                                             我在西湖邊慢慢地等著，夜晚的西湖邊有點(diǎn)涼，就算是在這種季節(jié)里面，水汽充足的地方總是挺冷的。像是那一年在西湖邊看那什么《印象西湖》的時(shí)候，美則美矣，我只覺(jué)得冷的牙齒都在打哆嗦，回去之后果然不負(fù)眾望地發(fā)燒了。                                                                                                             西湖不管白天晚上都是一樣的人多，到處都能聽(tīng)到吵鬧聲。                                                                                                             我回想了很多，那一年的雪景，還有其他的。                                                                                                             這么多年在這個(gè)城市呆下來(lái)，也沒(méi)有離開(kāi)的，可以說(shuō)，靳騏是一個(gè)理由，李澈也算是功不可沒(méi)的。                                                                                                             李澈很快就過(guò)來(lái)了，杭州也就這樣在上下班高峰期的時(shí)候堵的和上海有的一拼，但是等到高峰期一過(guò)，路上也就沒(méi)有這么的擁擠了。                                                                                                             李澈電話(huà)過(guò)來(lái)的時(shí)候，我還在西湖邊上坐著，寒的我直哆嗦。                                                                                                             “傻不傻，穿那么一丁點(diǎn)在這邊吹冷風(fēng)呢，還是想要感冒了之后有個(gè)人可以照顧你？”李澈嘴巴一向狠毒，所以我也不指望從他嘴巴里面聽(tīng)到一些好聽(tīng)的。                                                                                                             但是他一向是雖然這么說(shuō)著，但是動(dòng)作卻一向是很溫柔，b如說(shuō)一邊罵，一邊把身上的西裝脫了之后往著我身上披。                                                                                                             這種男人找不到nv人，就是因?yàn)樽彀吞荆趧e人都還沒(méi)有發(fā)現(xiàn)他的優(yōu)點(diǎn)的時(shí)候他就已經(jīng)把人給氣走了。                                                                                                             活該！                                                                                                             我拉了拉身上的衣服，在心底念叨了一句。                                                                                                             “送你回去?！崩畛豪彝＼?chē)方向而走。                                                                                                             “哦?！蔽覒?yīng)了一聲，乖乖地跟著他走。                                                                                                             “怎么今天不跟我鬧別扭了？”李澈覺(jué)得有點(diǎn)意外，以往的時(shí)候我總是要和他斗兩句之后才肯乖乖上車(chē)，“真的被楓吹傻了？”