誰說的？”我別開眼，不去看李澈。                                                                                                             李澈沒有開口說話，我也沒有，車子里面靜謐的就像黑暗一樣，唯一剩下的就是彼此之間的呼x1聲。                                                                                                             “哼……”                                                                                                             李澈的輕笑聲打破了這氛圍，他的聲音像是嘲諷一樣，聽在我耳中覺得特別的刺耳，也許是在嘲笑我剛剛明明沒有人看見卻還要轉來臉，就像那個時候靳騏剛離開的時候我g的哪些囧事一樣，他的笑聲，像是針扎一樣讓人特別的難堪。                                                                                                             我像是要證明自己一樣，從黑暗之中伸出手，攬住了李澈的脖頸，傾過了身，在這沒有一點光線的氛圍里面準確地貼上了他的唇，描繪著他的唇形，然后有些遲疑地想要探入。                                                                                                             李澈的身t有些僵y，任由我動作著。                                                                                                             他的味道很g凈，有著薄荷的清爽，香草的可人，還隱約帶著巧克力的濃郁。                                                                                                             我聽到他的呼x1聲慢慢地變得濃重起來，然后反客為主，更加張狂地侵占我的一切。                                                                                                             “喀”的一聲，我聽見他解開了自己身上的安全帶扣，又一聲“喀”，他把我身上的安全帶扣也解開了。                                                                                                             在我還來不及反應的時候，他已經(jīng)貼了上來，壓得我有些喘不過起氣來。                                                                                                             皮質的座椅，在身下發(fā)出一些輕微的聲響，有點不堪重負，就像是我的內心一樣。                                                                                                             “凌墨，這是你b我的?！?nbsp;                                                                                                            李澈的聲音在我耳邊響起，帶了一點喑啞，一別我平常認識的那個李澈，他的聲音里面帶著一種沖動。                                                                                                             他的唇溫熱，從額頭慢慢地親吻下去，細細碎碎的，落到唇上的時候，營造出了一片火熱。                                                                                                             他的手緊緊地扣住我的腰，然后透過那短外套下的長t恤，往著背部探去，t恤里面除了內衣，空無一物。                                                                                                             李澈的手撫到了我的內衣扣的位子，我也不知道他是怎么動作的，等到我反應過來的時候，我只覺得自己x衣帶子一松……                                                                                                             一聲尖銳的汽車喇叭聲在寧靜的小區(qū)里面響起，劃破了那安逸的氛圍，也讓我瞬間清醒過來。                                                                                                             李澈的動作也停止了，他左手用力地捶在玻璃上，發(fā)出“咚”的一聲悶響。                                                                                                             “凌墨，你哭什么，你哭什么！”                                                                                                             他的聲音里面帶著挫敗。                                                                                                             聽到他的話，我撫上臉，才發(fā)現(xiàn)自己不知道在什么時候已經(jīng)淚流滿面了，連嘴里都嘗到了那苦澀的味道。                                                                                                             我到底在哭什么？                                                                                                             我自己也不知道，但是眼淚就止不住地往下掉著。                                                                                                             一輛豪華轎車，一個yu求不滿的男人還有一個不知道在哭些什么的nv人，想想還真覺得像是一種諷刺一樣。                                                                                                             李澈的呼x1從急促慢慢變到了平緩，然后他伸手開了燈。                                                                                                             從觀后鏡里面，我能夠看到現(xiàn)在的自己有多狼狽，頭發(fā)凌亂不堪，衣衫不整，嘴唇微腫，最重要的還是紅著眼在那邊不停滴落淚，這模樣怎么看怎么像是一個遭遇了囗囗的悲慘nvx。                                                                                                             李澈慢慢地給我打理著，他的手指慢慢地撫著我的長卷發(fā)。                                                                                                             “別哭了，我又沒對你有實質上的進展，你什么都沒有失去，不是么？”李澈用手指扒拉著我的頭發(fā)，遇到打結的地方他耐心地用手指理順，“下一次把頭發(fā)拉直吧，卷發(fā)容易打結，不大好梳理。知道嗎？”                                                                                                             他叮嚀了一聲。                                                                                                             我有些凌亂地點著頭，其實我g本就不知道他在說些什么，也不知道自己在應承些什么。                                                                                                             “要不想發(fā)生這種事情，下一次直接給我一巴掌算了?！崩畛簢@了一口氣，又道，“知道嗎？”                                                                                                             我又點了點頭。                                                                                                             李澈的手穿過我的外套，隔著t恤，在我背后m索了一陣之后才把內衣扣子給我扣上。                                                                                                             “你呀！”                                                                                                             李澈的聲音里頭帶了點語重心長，那長長的尾音像是嘆氣聲一樣。                                                                                                             李澈給我開了車門，拉著我出了車。                                                                                                             “還不走，打算把剛剛沒做完的事情完成么？”李澈看著我問著。                                                                                                             我搖頭，剛剛只是意外，清醒之后我當然不希望再發(fā)生這種事情了，突然想想自己剛剛也太瘋狂了點，如果不是那一聲“笛鳴”，也許我就把自己的第一次給交代了出去，而且還是車震……                                                                                                             “現(xiàn)在倒是清醒了?！崩畛汉吡撕撸曊{之中似乎有些不滿，更多的是點氣氛，“那時間還抓的剛剛好?！?nbsp;                                                                                                            也不知道是不是我多想了，我總覺得李澈在說這句話的時候除了無奈之中，更多的是咬牙切齒。                                                                                                             我上了樓，不敢開窗去看李澈是不是還在樓下，因為剛剛的事情似乎還在腦海這種閃現(xiàn)一樣，讓我震撼不已，沒有想到自己有一天居然也會做出這種瘋狂的事情、                                                                                                             這件事情算是一件不能說的秘密，對于林淼淼的也不能說。                                                                                                             我在想，如果剛剛沒有那一聲“笛鳴”，我會不會真的清醒過來，還是由著事態(tài)發(fā)展？                                                                                                             我不清楚，也許會，也許不會，這個答案我自己也不清楚，如果真的做了之后會不會后悔，這種事情我自己也無法做出一個合理的解答，或者是會后悔的。                                                                                                             就像是李澈說的那樣，那時間抓得剛剛好，剛剛好的讓我清醒過來，剛剛好讓事情不是變得一發(fā)不可收拾。                                                                                                             那個人，會是誰呢？                                                                                                             哪天晚上，我又做了一個夢，延續(xù)的是那未完的情節(jié)。                                                                                                             我和李澈在車上，就像是哪天晚上一樣，激情四溢，瘋狂無b，在李澈成功進入到堡壘的時候，透過李澈的肩膀，我看到了在那昏暗之中隱藏著一輛車，車燈突然之間亮了起來，刺眼無b。                                                                                                             等到眼睛適應了那光線之后，我發(fā)現(xiàn)坐在駕駛座上的人居然是靳騏。                                                                                                             他就這樣坐著，手搭在方向盤上，冷冷地看著我和李澈，就像是在看著陌生人一樣，那種眼神讓人心寒。                                                                                                             我哭著，用力地陲著身上的李澈，那力度卻像是蚍蜉撼樹一樣，一點都沒有改變現(xiàn)狀，而靳騏的車瞬間到了我的身邊。                                                                                                             在和我擦窗而過的時候，我聽到他說了一句話。                                                                                                             “凌墨，我不要你了?！彼f。                                                                                                             我想伸手攔住他，但是我一伸出手，夢突然之間就醒了。                                                                                                             在凌晨三點的時候，我開始失眠，了無睡意。                                                                                                             如果夢是反映人真實的想法的話，我想，我是這么希望的吧。                                                                                                             連著兩個夢都見到靳騏的，我想，我和他應該會遇見，但是我沒有想到，那見面會很快。                                                                                                             我之前收到一張請柬，是電臺里面一個不算很熟的主持人的。我至今都覺得有些疑惑，明明平常的時候都不常見到的兩個人，她怎么會送請柬給我呢，疑惑雖然疑惑，但是我還是包了個紅包，去參加婚禮了。                                                                                                             以前的時候還說，紅包這玩意是有去有回的，但是其實并不是這樣的，很多時候送出去的東西還是收不回來的。                                                                                                             我倒是覺得無所謂，反正我也不靠紅包過活，就像是這個嫁入了豪門的主持人一樣，據(jù)說她找的對象是富二代，家里面賊溜的有錢，光是砸在這婚禮上的錢就已經(jīng)上百萬了，像是我的紅包，不過是一個形式主義而已。                                                                                                             反正我也只是打算過去吃一場而已，吃飽喝足，差不多就該回去了。                                                                                                             只是我沒有想到我會在婚禮上上遇上了熟人了，而還是一個多年不見的熟人。                                                                                                             靳騏似乎和多年之前沒有多少改變，一樣的進口燈泡臉，x能優(yōu)異的讓人咋舌，我突然覺得有點同情今天婚禮上的新郎了，兩個人站在一起一b，完全不是一個檔次的。                                                                                                             你想，一個有點矮又有點胖的新郎找一個帥哥當伴郎，這不是搶自己的風頭么。                                                                                                             我遠遠地瞧見了靳騏，心跳的有點快，但是還不至于到暈倒的地步，呼x1也b平常稍微快了一點點，但是生命指數(shù)還算是正常，絕對不會出現(xiàn)突然之間暈倒需要送去醫(yī)院搶救的畫面。                                                                                                             情緒指數(shù)也還算正常，至少沒有那種找茬地想要上前給這個男人一巴掌的沖動。                                                                                                             有時候太過平靜，似乎是不大正常的，但是我相b較像是潑婦一樣沖過去把整個婚禮ga0砸的畫面，我覺得我還是b較現(xiàn)在這個樣子。                                                                                                             就這樣遠遠地看著那個男人，看著他在出現(xiàn)在我面前，然后又和我完全無關。                                                                                                             我去了一趟洗手間，洗完手出來的時候在洗手間門口遇上了靳騏。                                                                                                             他就這么依靠在墻壁上，就像多年之前他依靠在nv生宿舍門口那水杉樹上一樣，悠閑而又愜意。                                                                                                             我朝他笑笑，然后準備走開。                                                                                                             “阿墨！”他叫住了我。                                                                                                             “有事？”我回頭，微笑地問著。                                                                                                             如果是在多年之前，我覺得自己一定沒辦法這么平靜地和他對話，但是沒有想到多年之后，我倒是覺得有些介懷了，尤其是剛剛新浪在婚禮上介紹了他的伴郎是多么優(yōu)秀多么豪門，讓在場所有的單身nvx多努力之后，我反倒覺得平靜多了。                                                                                                             男人在很多時候都bnv人來的現(xiàn)實，所以在前途和ai情之間，絕大多數(shù)的男人都會選擇前途而不是ai情，有了前途之后ai情能夠收貨的更多，也能遇上更好的，這就是男人的現(xiàn)實。                                                                                                             想清楚了這一點，還有什么是不能接受的？                                                                                                             “我們很久都沒見了，你似乎變了很多?！苯U看著我，緩緩地說著。                                                                                                             “恩，都那么多年了，當然是要有點改變的。”                                                                                                             我點頭，像是一個老朋友一樣和靳騏在廁所外頭進行攀談，一點也不在意這場合是不是不對的問題。                                                                                                             “我都快三十了，要是再不改變，還有什么前景可言！”                                                                                                             “至少你的x還沒有下垂！”靳騏也笑了。                                                                                                             我笑容在一瞬間有點僵y，沒有想到他會突然之間冒出這么一句來，但是隨即地又回復了過來。                                                                                                             “真下流，小心被其他的nv人聽見，到時候你可就完蛋了！”我笑說，“今天還有不少媒t在呢，要是明天上了頭版頭條，也不知道會不會給我的臉打上馬賽克?！?nbsp;                                                                                                            靳騏也跟著我抿嘴輕笑。                                                                                                             “阿墨，你這些年來過的好么？”                                                                                                             我覺得舊情人之間最難堪的大概就是這一句了，過的好不好，對于這種前人來說已經(jīng)是過去式了，也不適合在那么多多年之后還拿出來說事，而且重點是說了還特別沒意思。                                                                                                             “還不錯?！?nbsp;                                                                                                            我點頭，的確還不錯的，沒有在他離開之后肝腸寸斷，也沒有ga0出點自殺的名堂來，好吃好喝好工作，再也沒有b這個更好的了。                                                                                                             “好了，我不和你說了，我還等著去t驗富豪的酒席是不是特別的夸張呢，這種機會不是天天有的?！?nbsp;                                                                                                            我找了個理由，告別了靳騏。                                                                                                             我想我不該和他再呆在一起，因為我知道如果還聚在一起的話，我想我還是會問一個問題，問他多年之前為什么會不告而別，像是一個斤斤計較的nv人一樣，我一點也不喜歡這樣。                                                                                                             我不回頭，也不管靳騏現(xiàn)在有沒有再看著我，婚宴場所里面很熱鬧的，一派好吃好喝的，還有很多我渴望已久還叫不出來名字的食物。                                                                                                             我想，這些是b靳騏還要重要的存在。                                                                                                             “阿墨……”靳騏一如呢喃的聲音在我后頭響起，“你為什么不問？”                                                                                                             作者有話要說：啊，jiejie我要黑名單鳥……昨晚加班，么有時間寫文的悲劇啊……                                                                                                             正文 第二十八章                                                                                                             我聽見了靳騏的說的話了，只是沒有想到他會主動問出口，我還以為他不會跟我說這件事情，但是沒有想到他還主動說起了這件事情，難得他還記得。                                                                                                             我還以為連他自己都已經(jīng)忘記了這件事情。                                                                                                             還能問什么，我也想不出來，如果是在很久以前，我想我還是有很多問題要問的，但是現(xiàn)在真的不想問了，不想。                                                                                                             我擺了擺手，表示自己不想問。                                                                                                             有什么事情是b較尷尬的？                                                                                                             我想大概就是和舊情人同桌喝喜酒了吧。                                                                                                             我想了想，從口袋里面m出了手機，發(fā)了一條短信給了李澈。                                                                                                             他一定是知道的，靳騏回來的他都能知道，怎么可能會不知道他會來參加這場婚宴，難怪之前他要我做好心理準備。                                                                                                             很快的，李澈就回了我的短信，他的短信很簡短，就像是他這個人的說話風格一樣，帶點淡淡的嘲諷意味。